And so it has begun

Today was day one of Weight Watchers. I did pretty good but I felt so hungry all day. As though no matter what I ate I wanted more. I think it has more to do with my brain knowing that I don't need more.
I want to lose about 30 pounds by my birthday in August.
I put on my strapless bra today and had a glimmer of what I could look like if I lost the weight. I would have an entirely new wardrobe that I really want to get into.
Sexyness here I come!

Here I am!

I felt creative today and spent about 4 hours reworking and rearranging things to finaly make something I am ok with.

Liars!

Whoever coined the phrase "Terrible two's" is a liar. What they should have said was "Hellascious sucky three's". Now that would have been more acurate.
LG has dumped clean laundry twice and the kicked the dirty pile across the room 3 times. We are struggling with time outs. He doesn't even make it to his room and I hear "I'm done."
I find the more consistant Gary and I are with disciplining LG the better his behavior is.
I am really working on controlling my anger when he does act out because I know that's not the right way.
PT'ing is going ok. LG has been in diapers off and on because of the medications he's on for his skin. Speaking of which has dramaticaly cleared up and I hoe to get pictures soon.

I honestly think that alot has changed for the better of the last 3 months within our household.
Gary is getting help with his pain, he's just about stopped smoking, and we are working on losing weight together.
Our relationship isn't as broken as it once was, but no means is it fixed. Sometimes I wonder if there ever will be a time where there is no underlying anxiety, hate, or contept being felt towards the other person. I know I have to accept others into my little world and learn to let go and not be able to control everything. It's just so hard when that's what you've hung onto for the last 3 years as your security.

I can see!

Got my new glasses tonight. Ready in 2 days too.
Mini bonus!
Took RP with me and she was pretty good. Until we got to the restaurant. Then she proceeded to scream her head off for 20 minutes while everyone stared at me.
As though never in all the world's history has a baby cried.
I met up Taylore and AV and that was nice. It's been a couple of weeks since we've been able to get together.
She also gave me a WW food book. Way awesome because it has thousands of foods in it and their points.
I need to drop this weight like a bad habit.
3 months should be enough time to lose about 30 pounds, no? Yes.
LG was so bad today. That child refuses to listen and I'm getting tired of saying the same thing 20 times. Terrible 3's suck.

What

For the life of me I can not find my glasses.
Which means I am blind. Not running into walls and knocking things over blind but what street is that and sitting 4 inches from the computer screen blind.
I went ahead and got my eyes checked out yesterday while Gary was home for the day. Then I hopped from one store to another trying to locate some descent looking frames.
I settled for something very out of the norm for me.
Everyone shall see next week when I pick them up. Mwuah ha ha ha!
LG's skin is doing so much better since he has been on the steroids.
Everytime we see the Dr. they give me the whole speel on how steroids are evil and will kill my child so they don't want to give them out. But you know what? My child is dying without them!
He has had 3 itch free days in a row. That is a major accomplishment in our world.

Pictures to ensue! LG and RP are going to Olan Mills in the next couple of weeks in Shreveport. I have a free newborn package for RP and I really want some of the two of them together.

It is so nice to get back into a routine. With Gary being out of work for 3 weeks it really messed me up. So much to the point that I thought about seeing a psychologist for depression. Turns out I was just pissed off. Go figure.
As much as I want him home, I don't. This is my world and you can only come in when I say you can and when I'm done with you, you must leave.

RP hasn't been sleeping very well. She goes into a shallow level of sleep and keeps waking up without actualy waking up. Very tiring.
Note to self: Buy more binkies
She is 2 months old and just now getting out of newborn clothes. So tiny.
And there is today's update.

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